Back off, fellas.

For the record, I have NOT been looking for someone to date over these last 8 months. I am pretty content on my own, and I really have no time to bother with such nonsense. That said, I have tried going on dates when someone is interested in me. It's not happening anymore. I really want to be left alone. That's besides the fact that if you aren't ambitiously working your way through school towards a stable career or are already in possession of a position that makes you around 50 grand a year, I want nothing to do with you. You have nothing to offer me. I'm going to buy a house next year, and I could have it paid off before I turn 40, ON MY OWN. So the last thing I need is someone I'd have to take care of or who couldn't keep up. I'm not sorry because I have big plans for myself, and no one is going to hold me back.

Hmm...

So the one guy that I have continued to hang out with really confused me the other night. He tends to be reluctant about following my occasional requests to take precautions. (I'm not always consistent.) He made a comment about my inconsistency, and I responded that I'm sometimes weak, and he doesn't pick up for my weakness. I said that I didn't know where he had been, so he shouldn't give me a hard time. He remarked that it was a bit late for that, which I admitted, but added that I'd gotten tested, so he said we were fine then. I couldn't accept that because I didn't know what/who else he was doing. Here's where he blows my mind. He said he hadn't been with anyone else since me. Now, I was under the impression that this was far from true. Every time we planned to hang out and canceled, I assumed he found someone better. This information really threw me off. I even joked about the possibility that he was only telling me what I wanted to hear, but he responded very seriously that he was absolutely not. Some of my friends that I told still don't believe it. I can't help it, though. It changed the entire mood of the night and it was more affectionate and romantic than ever before, so I feel like that's an important difference. All I've wanted since that night is to see him again, which is crazy because we don't hang out that often, and I couldn't picture us legitimately dating. It's so confusing. I really don't know what to think...