Because I'm an idiot,

I've fallen for a boy that does not meet any of my criteria. He's young. He's not in school. He smokes. He's in a band. He has an audience on every social networking medium made up of other bands, attention-seeking fans, sluts, and even strippers! Cool.

I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm just riding it out to see where it goes, if anywhere. I'm not pushing anything in any direction, just letting whatever happens happen.

This approach can't be worse than how things have been turning out. We'll see...

The Never Ending Rollercoaster.

As is becoming typical of me, I've completely changed my mind overnight. Just when I think I'm ready for a relationship, I wake up one morning wanting nothing to do with the situation. I'm going to stop making myself crazy over this nonsense and go back to worrying about school. Ugh.