I feel like every connection I have right now is completely superficial. I long for something real and meaningful. I know I should just relax and enjoy being on my own and free, but it's not that easy. This time of year, I feel more alone for some reason. Who am I going to carve pumpkins with? Who is going to hold me on haunted hay rides when I'm screaming like an idiot? What good is chilly weather when there's no one to cuddle with?
I have a wedding tomorrow. I'm so excited for the bride. She's a very good friend of mine and one of the sweetest people on the face of this earth. She deserves happiness more than anyone I can think of. And while I will be extremely happy for her, a part of me will be thinking about that invitation she sent me with a plus one. It was so nice of her to make room, and I can't even fill the space. Of course it will go to someone else, but it hurts knowing who would have been there.
