Longing

I often find myself longing for more time and less required activites that seem to steal time away from me. I flip through magazines and tear out pages of home decor ideas and tips, interesting food and drink recipes, cute crafts, and layouts for beautiful gardens. I intend to try all of these things one day, but I never get around to any of them. I always feel rushed and bogged down with obligations. I'm not even running my own household!! I have to wonder how people design and decorate these beautiful homes and yards and then have the time to relax and enjoy them. It seems so out of reach. But, really, thats all I want in the world. I want to own a cute little house that is just big enough. I want the rooms to be pretty and unique. I want a pleasant back yard that is inviting to guests and not impossible to maintain. I want to have little babies in my pretty house and watch them grow. I want them to play outside until it's too dark to see. This is my dream.